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By: Eating Disorders Carnival – Candyfloss Optional « Marine Snow

Eating Disorders Carnival – Candyfloss Optional « Marine Snow — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 18:37:57 +0000

[...] reading today, then head on over to Isabella’s site, and have a squizz at the latest issue of The Carnival Of Eating Disorders. This is a monthly carnival, so if you like it be sure to bookmark it. Cheers for the mention [...]

By: Love Messages

Love Messages — Fri, 07 Nov 2008 06:57:34 +0000

amzaing carnival! I can see great links!

Costume is very good and suits your personality.

Love you.

By: Lola Snow

Lola Snow — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 11:17:35 +0000

Oh – did you realise that the link for “submit for the next carnival” is not working yet? Blog carnival is not set up for the next edition.

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By: Lola Snow

Lola Snow — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 11:15:29 +0000

I’m jumping on the bandwagon, and saying: that is an awesome fluffy boa! It reminds me of one my brother had at his house for ages. Whenever we had a visitor, we would make them put on the boa and have a polaroid picture taken. One wall was dedictaed to the Boa Photo Photos. Very cool indeed.
Great Carnival Isabella, I’m trying to round up a posse of contributors for the next one!

Lola x

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By: Kelly Turner

Kelly Turner — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 20:59:38 +0000

great carnival! tons of great links!

your costume is great! i think i have that hat…

Kelly Turner
http://www.groundedfitness.com

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By: Laura Collins

Laura Collins — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 11:24:04 +0000

Gosh, aren’t I supposed to dress that way every day? Oh, well…

Thank you for the Carnival!!

By: ClinicallyClueless

ClinicallyClueless — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 04:06:46 +0000

Isabella,

Thank you. Your blog is one of the ones that I feel safe enough to write about something so fresh and raw. I was actually here last night going through your eating disorders stuff.

I like that you are keeping the hat on…threw you a little off did it? It is fun dressing a little crazy sometimes. I hope it was fun for you.

ClinicallyClueless’s last blog post..PAST JOURNAL ENTRY ~ November 2-6, 2005 ~ On Vacation

By: isabella mori

isabella mori — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 03:56:43 +0000

hi cc – please, absolutely no reason to apologize for “going on” – to the contrary. thank you for letting us participate in your life. i’m glad that here on the internet at least you feel somewhat ok talking about this situation.

and thanks for the segue. boy, i must have been VERY turmoiled actually, when i came home i couldn’t wait to get into less crazy clothes. still wearing the hat though

By: ClinicallyClueless

ClinicallyClueless — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 02:41:04 +0000

Oh, I like the costume. In terms of a segue, eating disorders and costumes are much the same in that it maybe what you see on the outside and focus on, but it only expresses the turmoil on the inside. ClinicallyClueless's last blog post..PAST JOURNAL ENTRY ~ November 2-6, 2005 ~ On Vacation

By: ClinicallyClueless

ClinicallyClueless — Sat, 01 Nov 2008 02:36:55 +0000

My therapy session last Fridaywas intense. Although it my eating disorder has been an obvious issue, in the almost 22 years that I’ve known my therapist it was the one area that I would not allow him to touch. I’d become defensive or refuse to talk. But, for some reason, I initiated the conversation last Friday. And it was a discussion and non-defensive. I cried quite a bit, and I usually don’t cry at all even when I need or want to. I actually admitted that I have an eating disorder.

For more than 30 years, I thought I had control, didn’t have to ever talk about it and could handle it on my own. I can’t. I feel better when I share it with my therapist. I am scared. Everything felt surreal afterward.

Although my I am overweight now because of the side effects of my medications, I am in a panic because I need to lose weight, but don’t really think I can without starving. Even when my weight has been okay, the thought patterns and behavior have been there everyday. (Crying now.)

I didn’t think I was in trouble when my 5’4″ body was at 97 pounds (twice). All I could think of was getting to 95, then 90…there was no end.

I am so ambivalent about talking to my therapist who is the only one that I’ve ever talk to about it. About whether it really is a problem (which is just acting out my ambivalence and denial). I’m ambivalent about letting go of it or not. 30 years is a long time.

Sorry to go on so, but I am both compelled right now to read blogs about eating disorder and terrified because I know the thought patterns and games. I want to pretend that I’m okay again and it feels good not to feel so alone and to let my therapist into the one area that I have so heavily protected from him for more than 20 years. Yes, we talked about it, but it was never productive. Now, I just feel relieve to allow him in.

Again, I’m sorry to go on so.

ClinicallyClueless’s last blog post..PAST JOURNAL ENTRY ~ November 2-6, 2005 ~ On Vacation