This is a special new area for people who want to have a small, intimate place to discuss anorexia. It was born via the rather long comment section in an article here on this site about 10 activities that help with recovering from anorexia. I know there are other sites out there who are very good at helping people with anorexia talk to each other; Somethingfishy is the best example. I certainly don’t want to take away from sites like this; they’ve proven invaluable for people who are trying to overcome anorexia.
However, for those of you who want to stay here, I’d like to provide this space where you can talk.
Please be aware that this area is visible to anyone who cares to visit; if privacy is important to you, please use an alias.
This is a place of support and respect, a place for sharing your journey in recovering from anorexia. I will remove any comment that is disrespectful or unsupportive (and, of course, any and all spam).
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(Btw, if you’re interested to hear what has been written on this blog on anorexia so far, here is the list.)
Here are a few things you may want to start out with:
- Do you get enough support from people around you?
- How do you deal with the roller coaster of recovering from anorexia?
- Have you found a food plan that works for you?
- How do you feel with the feeling of self-loathing that sometimes come up?
- Do you have tips for finding (and staying with) the right therapist?
- How long have you been in recovery?
- What do you do when you can’t stop thinking about the food/weight?
PLEASE NOTE:
Due to the great success of this page, I have now created a new page on this site, to make the large comment/talk section a bit easier to manage. Please continue your discussion here.
(And another note: Any message on this page that seems even remotely like spam will be deleted. This is NOT a place to advertise.)
melissa
heyyy .well done on not throwing up!!! that is an amazing achievement so be proud of urself!!!u will get ur period, give ur body time!!! it has to learn to trust u, after all the throwing up and damage done to it, u have to let it heal and it will come back dont worrry. emotional mood swings are not nice but theyre part of recovery, try to express urself write it down, let sum anger out, write on this, listen to some music .
xx
be strongggg. proud of u!
ooh also can i ask, r u at ur healthy weight ? and do u eat enough also? xx
Hey Melissa, good to hear from you again!
One easy to say but hard to do advice: relax!!!!! I know this is hard, and I have to remind myself of it, too. I get lots of anxiety sometimes and really overwhelmed. I’d be worrying about silly things, and I have to keep reminding myself to relax! Do some breathing exercises, listen to music, go for a light walk. Sunshine really helps.
My body didn’t have its period back until about four months later of being at my healthy weight. I had it for six months straight each time, but I didn’t get one recently. I think it’s because of me slacking off with eating, sometimes not eating too much, and stress. It seems so hard to get one while everyone else gets it so easily! But it will come, I promise you. I’m trying my best to get it again,
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Thank you aliyah and nature, I know I have to be patient and understand my body needs to recover. It just sucks becasue I have not had it for so long that Im worried about osteoporosis or bone density loss. My last period was October 2006. A really long time ago. Maybe that’s why my body is taking more than 2 months, lol.
Any ways about the eating, I have been getting about 1500 calories a day, for my active lifestyle. My BMI is fine, 19.2 or 19.3 last time I checked. first time EVER it was healthy, YAY!!!!
Although, I have been under alot of stress and skipped meals because I was just too busy to realize until it was too late. However I feel guilty for skipping now which is good.
Is 15000 enough for an active lifestyle? I walk everywher, do the stairs all the time- I live on the 4th floor so 16 stairs perr floor, I play with thetoddlers at work- running around trying to get them
, and other chores. I hope its enough,lol. eating more would be super hard. 
Anyways, how is was everyone else’s day????
No, no, no definitely not enough! I eat anywhere from 1500-2500 a day, and I do NOTHING. I just sit, do homework, and go shopping for groceries with my mom and that’s about it. I’ve been doing that for a year now, and once I got to my healthy weight, I still had to wait four months to have my period.
What I suggest is replace fat free versions of food with fat included foods, lol. I changed my soy milk to 2% real milk. I started eating nuts and yogurt that also had fat. No more fake sugar!!! No diet drinks. All real good stuff. Did you know we need about 60 grams of fat a day in our diet? That was a BIG thing for me since when I was anorexic, I always made sure that I was ALWAYS under 10 grams of fat a day, and on most days I’d never have more than 5 grams. I was so afraid of it!! But we need it, especially to get our period back. Calcium is really important, too. I have to work on that as well seeing as how I missed this month due to bad eating!
yeah, i used to be really scared of fat too. fat and calories were my big thing..
i knew that if i ate fat, then id crave and crave it. but now, to get more fats in my diet, i eat peanut butter, and dip veggies in ranch dressing(not low cal dressing). its a good way to get fats in without actually knowing that your eating fat. i feel so much more comftoble doing that, other than putting a wad of margarine on potatoes
2006, thats a loonngg time, i can totally understand why youd get impatient. im sure most people would be saying ‘yes! no period, i hate those!’ but it such a strong message to us. dont get discouraged, because even though you dont have your period, you still have those hormones.
i had a break down today, and trying to make myself feel better. and suggestions. already tryed: music, tv, walking, shower, drawing, writing, crying, doing nothing.
thanks
I dealt with depression by writing mostly, listening to music too, and DANCING! (this is goign to be weird) but i would just wear my bra and some shorts and dance for hours in the dark in front of my full length mirror. When it was dark I couldnt see my stromach very well and I felt beautiful. It was very rare. I seriously suggest dancing. Just get into moving your body, it doesnt matter if you look stupid or not. I never realized how many horrible things happen if your body gets way too low. When I first came on here i was 113 and 5’6″. I told you i was 120. I dont really know why. Im so glad I came on when I did. I could have fallen into that. You have all broken me out of that horrible and torturous cycle. Thank you for my life back! IM HAPPY AGAIN!
melisa- 1500 is ok i guess but not if ur very active, u shud just maybe aim for 1800, women need around 2000, so add in a wee energy drink or something like that maybe?
aliza- hope u have a better day and yes i agree with u its defo better to eat stuff when u dont know the cals and stuff.
ilsa- stay positive and be happy! u have to make life what u want and u cant let an ED hold you back!!
im so much happier now, i go out i can go out for meals, i sleep good and i enjoy food.
life is not about food, so stay strong everyone and never give in xxx
aliyah, you’re refreshing. I like you : )
Hey guys!
I haven’t been able to get on this site much recently.. its been busy. But I love all the support you all are giving each other and i promise I’m gonna try to get on here more often. It’s giving me hope.
I was actually doing well. As some of you might remember, Im having trouble with binge eating because of my recovery from anorexia. I was actually able to get my eating under control for a while and I was so proud of myself. It was easy to keep my meals straight and not snack as much in between because I had cheerleading right after school and got out just in time for dinner. It was perfect. But cheerleading ended last week and now I come home from school at 3.I have binged for the past week!! And Ive gained some weight!! I hate that I have this problem. I don’t understand why I just can’t get better. I eat, and then I feel so guilty, gross, and fat that I’ve taken laxatives in the past, but thinking about the encouragement I’ve gotten from all of you, and the fact that laxatives are bad for you, I haven’t taken them at all this week! Even when I have binged! Instead, I’m trying to do things, like using the Wii fit to burn off calories. Problem is, I still snack right after school. It’s gotten to the point where I’m not even hungry for dinner, but I eat anyways, and then I feel even more fat and gross. Any tips??
Ilisa-
You should be so proud of yourself! It takes a lot of courage to open up and admit you had a serious problem. You have control of your life, you can do anything you want to do and be anything you want to be, and nothing is holding you back now. Great job
Hi Friends,
I haven’t been here in awhile. I want to come on more. I feel so confused. :\
Ugh. Like part of me wants to be anorexic, and skinny. While the other wants to be healthy. i feel like a bad person. :[
Hi Jenn, Welcome back!
Having anorexia does not make you a bad person, and wanting to recover but being scared certainly does NOT make you a bad person.
I felt the exact same way, I just wanted to be healthier and feel better without regaining any weight. But bodies do not work that way, as maddening as that is.
Also, remember when you are anorexic you are beyond thin, the body becomes emaciated and skeletal looking. Recovery does not make you fat you regain weight to live and be THIN NOT SKELETAL. That is still hard for me to distinguish sometimes too.
Know that you are not alone and we are all here for you whenever you fell scared or nervous or upset or even happy!
carrie- what weight level are you, are u a healthy BMI? just try to eat healthy snacks, dried fruit, fruit, and when u feel peckish drinks couple of glasses of water first.
life is to short anyway, dont hold urself back, and restrict just try to vary the food and im sure u will be fine, good luck xxx
Carrie I totally know what you mean !
I love when my meal plan fits into my day perfectly and I have things to do to keep my mind off it!
I hate when I have nothing to do and end up snacking more !!
I lost a kilo last week and was told to add in more snacks! But now I feel like I’ve gained about 5 kilo this week !! Arghh!
I wish I never got this stupid ED!!! x
kayla- it is hard to not snack lots when u have nothing t do, but dont deprive urself.
u dont want to lose any weight , u wont gain anything from it. But REgaining some weight is good, so dont see it as a negative
stay strong xx
Carrie~ first, or all, i literally said “yay!” out loud when i read your comment to me. needless to say it made me very happy. I had the same problem as you. I never binged, but I ate so much when i wasnt hungry just because I couldnt keep my mind off of food, it was all i could think about and i couldnt stop until i had dinner, even if i was already full. What I started doing was telling myself that IT DOES NOT MATTER. I let myself eat whatever i wanted- honestly wanted. I found out that if i do that (and trust me it takes weeks of practice to convince yourself) but anyway if i do that I eat a bit more unhealthy but im not thinking about food literally ALL of the time, and i actually eat less. I did gain a little weight, but I dont feel gross about it becasue im actually happier. You have to realize that it really doesnt matter. ask yourself what you actually want, eat it, and then just think about something else. Its hard, but dont let society get to you. its Your body, eat what you want : ) it knows.
Hi i am Nicola, i have been anorexic since about september but am recovering well, i am about 5ft 3 and my lowest weight was about 6st 3lbs. i think this is a good site because sometimes i feel when i talk to people they dont actually understand like they will nod and agree with what you are saying but they dont truely understand do any of youze feel that way ?
i am getting much better now though, at first i just totally restricted what i ate, like i could go to dinner having nothing and i was still very active doing running, swimming and 5 hours of p.e a week and i would do an excersse dvd 3 times a week too. i was soo determined to prove that i could be the best at dieting and being the skinniest, i have a natural competitive nature and want to be the best at everything, but now i guess i just have to accept i cant be. my mum then took me to the doctors she stopped me running and put me on a food plan but i wormed my weigh out of it and lost even more weight so i had to go to this special clinic where i saw a physciatriast and a dietitician, i hated seeing my dietitician she gave me a menu plan with sooooo much food and carbs and calories, and i am still on it to continue regaining. i guess i have kinda got used to it but it still feels like loads
i then still wanted to prove i was the best and just did more excersise at home cleaning, marching the shower and lost more, i then go so ill i wasnt allowed out at weekends atall 
, i didnt eat lunch with my friends, i missed my school dance, friends going out for dinner i missed out on so much, i am n ow recovering well, everyone has said they are really proud of me, i eat with my friends twice a week in the lunch hall and go to a seperate room the other says, we working on getting me to try different and forbidden foods, like get back to eating pizza and stuff
i am really really really scared about trying these and we are trying me with pizza tonight :O:S for the first time since about July :O
any advice on how to approach thses food ? if that makes sense ? thanks x
and another thing i really think this site is great and glad i have foud it
xx
Hey guys, I hope you’re all doing well,
. Lots of ups and downs emotionally for me recently, ):, but I’ll get through I guess…
Hey Nicola, you have come a LONG way, and I want to congratulate you for that!!! Give yourself a pat on the back,
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When I first started recovery, I was eating pretty okay, but I still didn’t eat some of the foods I found scary. What I did was just go step by step… if my parents bought cookies or something, maybe I’d have one and see how I felt. If I was okay with it, I’d have another the day after tomorrow or whatever. I just said to myself I needed food anyway, and I might as well enjoy the foods I didn’t allow myself for a long time. Food is food, it gives lots of nutrients, vitamins, and minerals. Calories are only a small part of it,
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hi nicola- firstly well done on chosing recovery and trying to combat and beat ana!! its the best thing ull do, trust me
also remind urself that u are not gaining weight but REgaining weight. also the only way to approach foods that scare you, is to test urself, u need to say right ok im scared of this food, why am i scared? im scared its going to make me fat? welll i need to test it. and u shud try to eat it, u dont have to sit and eat tons, have some and try to enjoy it, and show urself that really its not as bad as it is made out in ur head.its important to eat with others so thats really good, and just look at what theyre eating, show urself what is normal.
all the best and stay strong, there is a way out .and i used to fear pizza, now its one of my fave foods, i love going out to eat it. and im not fat
im aliyah by the way, and im 19, had anorexia and bulimia for 7 years, and i overcame it, so i know you can to. a healthy fed mind, and slowly in time the thoughts go away, you need to challenge them, and proive to urself u are not depriving urself.
xxx
hey nature, i hope u feel better soon, your very strong you always overcome any negativity.
Keep following the advice you give, and keep up the food intake. Life is what you make it, smile your way through, bad times will pass.
all the best x
hey thanks Nature for your advice
and Aliyah i think it is amazing after 7 years you managed to beat your anorexia and bulimia
and guess what ?
tonight me and my mum thought would be a good time to try some pizza for my dinner
my mum put half the pizza on my plate, then my step dad suggested taking 2 bits away to make it seem easier, i then cut it up and just picked it up
it took me about half an hour or something just to put the first square in my mouth
i kept counting down from 10, then i got to 1 and had all these feelings in my stomach and i couldnt do it, i was so close to just not trying it, then i put that first bit in my mouth, i actually couldnt believe i did it, i managed another 3 small pieces, then my step dad said ” listen nicola, you have done reallt well, why not stop now and have something you are comfortable with” and i thought that was a good idea then i had some beans on toast, my mum was sooo proud of me,
i know i originally wanted to eat a few slicess of pizza and i did only manage a few wee cut up squares, but it was still a big step for me because i havent had a slice of pizza since last july !!!:O
i know for some people who dont know how it feels to be anorexic must be like ” that is pathetic, eating a bit of pizza, so what ” but i feel i really did well, and dont care if other people think i am weird, because i accomplished something today !!! x
Nicola that is amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Way to go!!! Trying new or scary foods is very difficult and you did it!! Someone who has never experienced anorexia would never understand how hard it was for you to eat that pizza, and how strong you are. Its like me talking to a man about what it is like to live in Ethiopia, I would never understand because I have not eperienced Ethiopia. Remember how strong you are and how good you feel when you eat whenever you feel down.
why cant it be spring break right now?????!!!!!! 
Oh yeah, I’m Melissa by the way. I’m 19 like aliyah, and had bulimia, anorexia, extreme weigh/ diet obsessions for 6 years. But not anymore! A life with friends, family, and food is deffinitely better than a life of starvation and isolation.
Know that whenever you want to talk and whatever you want to discuss, we are always here fro you!!!!!! No one will ever judge you, no matter what.
Now, sadly it’s back to homework for me.
Best wishes to everyone!!!!!!! Happy weekend!
Aliyah … I was just reading some of the earlier comments from like 2008! You’ve came such a long way! Really inspiring!
Take care! x
ugh. i keep over eating. and then like crying and getting upset. i know it kills my bestfriend. Her sister had anorexia. im really lost right now. everyone think im fine. but i know im not…
Do you know what I like the most about getting over this? Im not obsessed with time. I dont look at the clock to make sure ive only had so many calories by one oclock. I went out today to a japonese market with my boyfriend. I spent the day doing things I love and I really didnt have much of a clue about the time. Its freeing.
Good job everyone, im really happy to be part of this group and im so proud of you all. Pizza’s hard. Im just barely able to eat that now. Im proud of you and i think you are awesome for eating it nicola. It doesnt matter what anyone else in that stupid society says : ) Be proud of yourself you deserve it.
nicola- thats amazing, thats exactly the way u shud be doing it! small steps, and these small steps are HUGE achievements so well done. Its really good u had ur mum supporting you, and now u know pizza is not as scary as it first seems. and u listened to my advice and challenged the thoughts!!! well done, and keep it up, maybe try something new every week or something
kayla- thank u soo much
i want to go back and read them one day too. I realised i dont want ana and dont need it in my life, and with the support of everyone on this site and my bf and family and frends i got past it, and honestly i am much happier. im moveing on wit life, and not holding myself back. life is short, and i will always be here to support u guys!! this is a horrible disease, and i even want to be a psychologist and do research on this for a living. i dont want people to suffer from it, its horrible it changes ur personality , makes u lose ties with people and it has so many potential long term consequences.
stay strong everyone , u are all going to beat it! and those in further stages of recovery- keeep going!
ilsa- keeep going amnd stay strong. its good ur mind isnt fixated on food and time, but do try to make sure u eat enough, have 3 meals, and snacks and get on with life
xxx
thanks melissa i think like Aliyah that is amazing that you over came your ilness well done
i never knew that when you were ill you experienced alot of isolation, because sometimes feel a little but like that , i am much quieter than i used to be and sometimes go into my own wee world, i missed out on soo much time with my friends and it is going to be hard for me to totally fit back into the group, but i am trying really hard to return to my normal chatty self,
Another thing its really sad realising how unfit i am
, i used to be really fit and healthy, i was in the top reely team for my running club, now i sometimes even get out of breath walking up a hill :/, but i guess as i get better i can train my self to be fit again but in a healthy way this time
today i went to the supermarket with my mum
i only went down a few isles but she helped me pick different types of biscuits, crisps and cereal bars, i really want to be able to pick something that i like determined on taste not the calorie or fat content.
i think it is great that people on this website who have experienced this illness know exactly how each other feels and it is a really good way to talk
xxx
nicola- yes its hard to buy something and just eat it, but it will happen. recovery isnt just about food, ist about learning about urself and growing, and getting a healthy rship with food agen. think back to a time when u did, for me i can barely remember, ive had a very unhealthy relationship with food, and it took me ages to get it normal.
now i try to look at food as like a medicine, its good for you, it helps u sleep, keeps u healthy, helps u live longer, gives u energy…. etc.
try small things in smal steps, and treat urself to things u want, even just a few bites
hey, thanks Aliyah, thats how i have been told to look at food, as medicine thats what my physiciatrist said
yeah i think it is about learning too, and some day but not right now i want to be able to not care about the calories and all that because i still do look at the back of the packet, but i have noticed i am much less obsessed with food
my physcologist, got me to do a pie chart of the things in my life that are important to me at the moment
like friends and family, school, social events, body image and food
the body image and food section did take up about 15 percent of the space in my pie chart but, i was then told to draw a pie chart about what was important to me a few months back and the food and body image section took up ALOT of my pie chart
i then drew one to, show how i wanted my life to be in the future, and the food and body image section was much much smaller
looking at the pie chart of the past it shows how far i have come, and looking at the one for the future has now given me a goal to achieve
xx
anyone who is struggling should try that as it really really helps
hi all,
ive been away. forcing myself to *gasp* socialize:(
i could write for hours about all the struggles i had with it. but i cant now bc i feel like shit, as usual. i wake up noadays and dont even give myself a chance, cuz i know that im gonna feel awful.
well, i was at this..lets call it a gathering. idk really know how to describe this thing im involved with. but i have friends in it and we meet new people and stuff. the one friend that knows about my ed is in it, and she was so sweet. she was patient with me when we ate and told me how well i was doing, even if i just ate 1/2 a cookie. i dont get that at all at home.
but i feel like im being a nussance to her. some days i feel like she hates me, idk why. even though she tells me she loves me almost daily.
the symptoms of depression are becoming soooo much more clear in me know. i fit up the majority of the depression criteria. like right now, my friend isnt responding and i think he hates me now. blahblahblah, im crazy, blahblahblah. the same stuff i pester you with usually:(
btw! hi nicola!! im glad you found this ite, and that your recovering. my tory is close to yours.. your doing amazing!!! nice tackle on the pizza, and im glad your overcoming poor body image. we all can relate, so dont feel alone.
all of you are doing great!
im going to shut upi now and stop making your lives worse. sorry.
ps. my ‘s’ on my keyboard int working vry good, so if im missing an s somewheere, that the reason..
pss. anyone know the name of a murderur? im planning on pissing one off.
oh aliza, u are not ruining anyones lifes. people tell u they love you, we all give u support, u need to get thru this, and not give in.
try ur best, and keep fighting, x
i agree with Aliyah, we are all in a situation where we need to stay stong
x so keep going, everyone is supporting you 
I dont get the murderer comment. Anyway,
ALIZA- WE PASSIONATELY LOVE YOU
…i had a bad day today. I was really inconfident. I feel like I dont really fir it here because i never was technically as anorexic as you guys. I feel like im just a burden and maybe i should just go ….
im sorry…
I dont get the murderer comment. Anyway,
ALIZA- WE PASSIONATELY LOVE YOU
…i had a bad day today. I was really inconfident. I feel like I dont really fir it here because i never was technically as anorexic as you guys. I feel like im just a burden and maybe i should just go ….
im sorry… .
i have no idea why that repeated. sorry…
Ilisa- everyone on this site loves having you here! There’s no such thing as more or less anorexic, having anorexia feels the same. if your life was negatively affected by the disorder then you BELONG here! No one judges who is or was the least/ most anorexic.
Tough days will happen, where you wonder why you even bothered to recover at all and you may believe you deserve to have anorexia and feel pain. That is exactly how I felt today. However, as my ever supportive mom said, “Everyone feels sad.” It is ok to feel sad and cry, but remember this feeling will pass and you are important and loved. I feel better now and I hope this post has helped you!!!!!!! 
I had a really hard day also. All my friends were either out of town or busy with homework, so I sat alone. I restricted today- becasue I became to depressed to eat.
ilsa- dont be silly, i love you! everyone on this site is accepted, and it doesnt matter what stage or weight u are.
u belong here, so dont let ana tell u otherwise.
i want u to keep eating, and staying strong, bad days always happen, but good days come to, so make today better, take each day as it comes, and dont leaveee this site.
we will chase u up ahah xxx
I think i just cried a little bit. Thank you all, i feel much better. my day was better today. but now everyone around me is getting all weight conscious cuz its prom dress season. Its hard to stay strong. I dont think i could explain how blessed i am to have you guys with me. You dont even judge me at my worst. And yes, the post helped!!
im in a unhealthy mental state.
i want to be anorexic again. i miss it…
ilsa- thats recovery for you, its rocky and its tough but it makes u stronger! I am who i am now cause of ana, i am stronger i know i can get thru anything in life. i overcame the demon! and you wll too. honestly the recipe for success- stick at it, and challenge ur thoughts u need to tackle the fears, eat the foods that scare you in small steps and show urself u are worth it, and that u are not a number.
keeep it up!
jenn- no thats ana talking, you dont need ana for anything, she is only going to bring u closer to death. recovery isnt easy, its very tough but if u want to get better and have a healthy relaironship with food, u have to challenge ur thoughts and fight it, u can beat it !
jenn
remember how lonely and isolating it was? depression and worry? its not worth it .. live . enjoy. I know sometimes easier said than done.
Nature,
hang in there.. I know ups and downs are hard to deal with ..seems like the downs will never end..but remember ..we know from past experience they will pass and better feelings will take over. just give it time. I will be thinking of you and the humming birds..(haven’t forgotten)
I am having quite a difficult time myself these last few weeks as I have returned to work and have received not a warm welcome as I believe the teacher I work with wanted me to remain out thru the end of the school year and have the current sub stay. so I am receiving the cold shoulder.. a bit hard for me to take. she’s afraid I will leave again. (to go into treatment) I told her I understand her concern but I am in a much stronger place.. however.. people don’t understand depression/eating disorders and I find it hard not to resort back to the ED as a coping skill , I have asserted myself in speaking my mind at school.. but inside my anxiety level is rising for fear of letting her down again. I know I can do my job. I can’t resort back to the ED .. my son is graduating in June and i don’t think my body could with stand another rollercoaster ride. I have had enough of this type of lifestyle.. I want more for me and my family.. but why is it so hard to let go?? control.. thats why. but I am finding it is a false control.
ED is tricky.. luring you ,,robbing yoiu of all you value in life. sorry// tough day .. feelilng a little
overwhelmed and not many people I can vent my frustrations to..
What is sad is I have known these people at work for 10 yrs and to have them brush me off hurts.. I am learning who my real friends are.
Oh well.. thanks for listening
Laurie
im sorry for ruining all of your lives
LAURIE~ you are worth more than whatever anyone else thinks about you. Think of how proud you are of your son and the happiness you have in life. An eating disorder doesnt make you happier, it takes your mind off of whats truly important in you life… what TRULLY makes you happpy. Remember that when its tough. Life is short. Love yourself. You deserve it.
ALIZA~ you have made my life exponentially better.
laurie- i can imagine it being hard, but you need to prove them wrong! and you need to stay strong to see ur son graduate, tell urself if u resort back, and u dont see ur son, and u dont do your job, your going to regret it foever.
i know u can doi,when u fel the anxiety, the fear dont resort to food, its not going to solve anything, so just try to eat well, and regularly and do your job, focus on the positivies. u have a job and a family, and your not going to let urself lose it!
Jenn you dont want to be anorexic again!!! Anorexia wants to control you again!! But you cant let it!! We all believe in you!
… Had my weigh in today. BMI’s now up to 19.4! At first I wasn’t sure if I was happy about it! But I think I am now.
I FEEL LIKE I DONT DESERVE A LIFE.:( i want to die. why cant i just recover by now??
im sorry, i would try to give advice to you all. but i cant even keep my own shit together, id probably make it worse.
Aliza your a good person and you do deserve to live. I know its hard but just keep on going! Are you at a healthy weight yet if you dont mind me asking ?
.. Do any of you have bebo or facebook ?x
kayla- yahhh!!!!! im so proud of you, and so happpy
well done on the BMI thats a really big achievement, and a big step away from ana 
be proud.aliza- if u want to recovery u can, just like u restricted food, u can undo it, only u can, u have to not letting the emotions dominate…