Comments on: anorexia talk – for people recovering from anorexia (2)

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http://www.afreearticle.com/Art/57058/32/Conficker-Removal.html — Mon, 10 Oct 2011 13:25:20 +0000

Good blog but a quick question. How old is this data?

By: Neko

Neko — Sun, 27 Feb 2011 03:15:43 +0000

“You know we come back cause we never leave
In your mind somewhere we sleep.”
Cause monsters don’t live under my bed
They rage on in my head.

These lines are as true as the day I put pen to paper eight years ago-

By: Becky

Becky — Sun, 30 Jan 2011 09:16:49 +0000

Hey girls..well i havent been here in so long. Lets see i left off ok but not great..things got better for a short while i re gained 8 lbs and was at 97 which was a very big deal for me the weight distribution sucked soo bad though my stomach felt like it was sucking it all up (the fat) that only lasted a while before i knew it i went from excercising just a bit more then going off the meal plan my doc gave me to now back were i was..i DONT want to be this way its not something i can switch on or off and thats what my family &frnds think that im choosing it but im not..which is why those ” tips & tricks” sites are a huge crock of crap..if you have tje choice &are able to make that decision for urself dont go with ana. Its taken yrs of my life & @ 20 its left me feeling much older..physically and emotionally. Im at 85 lbs right now. Not the lowest ive been but def unhealthy i know that. Basically i came here to let out some feelings ive been holding in..ive been feeling like so helpless..like ive lost control of myself like im living in a body that isnt mine and i just go thru the motions cuz i havd to..idk if this makes any sense to yall..i feel like my normal mood is sad and just dead pretty much im getting very used to that &its not good. I miss ballet so much..all i do is work but tthat keeps me busy enough i have some awesome frnds &fam but im not one to open up to ne one about my feelings especially when i know they wont understand. I keep all my feelings bottled up whivh makes it worse..im terrified to reach 100 lbs but i know i need to..soon too. I cant even think aboyt it w out it giving me crzy anxiety. Past couple months i just feel very alone ..like life is more of a chore than a gift. Its just not fun. Soo now im just rambling..i hope if yall read this you will give me some feed back on some of those deep feelings yall keep down ..and just how everyone is doing. Also meal plans? Id like to see what some of yalls are. And i have one big question im actually writting a paper on this topic sorta ok so are you a stress eater or starver OR binge&purger..meaning when you get into an argument w someone or bad day @ wrk/school .or just stressed do you just binge..or do you turn thay to your ed and just restrict/starve.OR do you b&p? ….okay i feel better getting all this of my sorry sio long and misspelled. Im writting from my phone sooo yeaaaa anyway thanks 4reading my nonsense talk…stay strong beauties xoxoxo

By: Neko

Neko — Wed, 12 Jan 2011 03:07:39 +0000

Hey Kate,
I have eaten past the “full” point…some of the time it was because I had to follow a meal plan. Even though it was a plan made by a professional- I still felt like I had eaten out of control. The nutritionist I was seeing once told me, “ what a person struggling with anorexia considers a binge is hardly a binge by conventional standards”. Grrrrr! I hated that meal plan business it but it got me back eating more/regularly. After I stopped seeing a nutritionist, I’ve eaten a few things to prove to myself that I could do it…It was also a way to slap the ED in the face and say “ha!”. But sometimes that sinking feeling of fear and guilt still set in…and it’s hard to fight it and I still struggle with restriction and/or purging, particularly when I’m really stressed about work and school. When I want to vent, I usually write or pray or draw about it because I still have a hard time talking to other people about everything (There’s just a few people in my life who know the eating disorder).
Please don’t start purging especially by throwing up. I know it’s tempting but it’s not pleasant and the effects hard on your body (which I am sure you’ve read or had someone tell you already). My teeth got very sensitive after I started doing this and may have contributed to frequent stomach aches/acid reflux. The doctor told me about the acid reflux-I can’t say it was caused solely from purging but I’m sure purging didn’t help the situation.
Perhaps one day we will personally know and embrace a new and hopefully healthier sense of “normal”. Though the battle rages on, Stay strong<3

By: Kate

Kate — Sun, 09 Jan 2011 23:56:53 +0000

hey guys, it’s been awhile but I’m not doing so good.
For awhile I thought i was doing good and that I was finally getting control of my anorexia but at this moment, I’m not so sure. For the longest time, I was beginning to thnk that I was over my fear of “forbidden” foods. But tonight, I went on what felt like a binge so I’m sure it was. I ate so many “forbidden” foods and I’m not sure why and now I’m scared. I am so scared that I’m going to gain a bunch of weight from it and I’ll feel worse about myself.
I need someone to talk to.. there’s no one where I live that understands what I am going through and so I keep all my feelings to myself. I don’t know why I continued to eat the food even after I was full. Like what was I trying to prove and to who??? It was like I was telling myself HA! See there I can eat that and you can’t stop me. But really that is so pathetic! Help me guys… I don’t know what to do or think. I want to restrict so badly and I had even thought about purging… :S

By: Jen

Jen — Sat, 04 Dec 2010 19:05:37 +0000

thanks neko and yes i have a couple close very suportive friends that know about it and that i can vent to. youre right it definitely helps! but i think i am also going to see a therapist soon like you so hopefully that will help get me through this even more.

By: Neko

Neko — Fri, 03 Dec 2010 06:19:58 +0000

Hi Jen,
Do you have a trustworthy friend(even if it is just one) that you might be able to open up to about everything that is going on? It was scary for me to take that leap because I don’t trust people easily. For such a long time, no one knew about this eating disorder-not even my closest friends. I starting seeing a therapist that was trained to counsel people with ED and she encouraged me to find one friend that I thought might be supportive in my recovery. My friend does not have an eating disorder but she was willing to just listen to me vent, freak out, and text me through a meal when I just really didn’t want to eat. That kind of support really helps cause yes- it is hard.

I did/still do write a lot as well. It just helps get whatever is going on inside out of me in a not so destructive way. You can do this. Be strong!

By: Jen

Jen — Thu, 02 Dec 2010 22:23:35 +0000

i just got diagonsed with anorexia – bulemia , my docotrs are making a meal plan for me and are forcing me to eat and watching everything i eat. Its so hard. I’ve never found anyone to talk to with this same problem until this website i just was wondering if any of you had anytips of how to get through the first stages of recovery without going crazy!

By: Adelle

Adelle — Sun, 28 Nov 2010 15:56:51 +0000

Hi ppl. It’s great to find a site where I can read others experiences.
I am seeing a dietician and had put me on a 1,900 calorie diet a few weeks back. I struggled but one week I finally managed to meet my goal every day. Then the week after (two weeks ago) I was put up straight away to a 2,200-2,300 a day. It seems alot so quickly but the durst week I was on that I put in just half a pound as opposed to 2pound which I had put on during the 1,900 week. So my metabolism must be catching up.
I do find it so scary though…my stomach still gets bloated and looks pregnant but i am handling portions better as in not feeling as full afterwards.
But I feel out of control. I still think about food all tje time snd crave it.
I still think I’m having two portions of say noodles or something instead if one. I get addicted to certain foods that I acually enjoy.. And then I worry it’s too much or I’ll get flabby cod it’s not in moderation if it’s everyday or twice a day. Eg: ommelettes/egg whites, English muffin 1or2 with ham, egg and slice of lowlow cheese.

Anyway my dietician is excellent and answers everything. But one thing I can’t get my head round is he always says I can’t overdo it at the moment, there is no limit to how much fat, sat fat or sugar daily I can consume…that the GDAs don’t apply to me. He said if it wernt for nutritional needs for the human body (ESP mine as it is ATM) then I could have 8mars bars a day and I wouldn’t get fat if I’m in my calorie range: he said it’s all about calories, not fats and sugars anyway.
And he wants me to have two or at least one proper pudding a day such as rice pudding or sponge pudding with custard instead of weight watchers desserts etc.
I love weight watchers desserts so I will keep getting them every so often but I need these proper puddings to get calories in easier and to get used to real food and tastes again.
Can anyone pls match his advice? Is that right that fats etc don’t apply to me? I hope so cos it excites me that I can eat whatever I want whenever as he says ATM and not gain flab. I still got to have nutrition of course…he isn’t saying to just eat chocs, pudding etc but he wants me to have them cos i gotta learn to enjoy my food without being scared.
I havnt had anything but crisps everyday with my lunch and one square of dark chic the other day as far as junk food goes. I do have two to four rich tea biscuits daily with a cuppa tho.
I look things up and read no fats are still bad for you evrn if you are underweight etc. And I gotta work out too. My advisors tell me to only exercise as I’m walking 15-20 mins a day if I want to and I’m allowed to do yoga and weights etc but ive yet to keep up with the weights as I find it too boring
I do crunches alot amd most days do 15 mins of yoga on wii fit.
The only walking I really do apart from shopping omce or twice a week is walking round the house all morning doing housework which is more than 15minutes totalled anyway I’m sure.
I’m not really skinny or anything. I went down to 7and a half stone (maybe more) from 18/19 stone when I decided to lose weight. My periods have stopped, I’m bony in some places and I’m cold and tired all the time. Last week I weighed in and came to just over 8 stone.
The dietician says for me (age 26, female, 5ft 5, and my activity level which I think is mainly sedentary cos I’m too tired to do anything but lie down all day and I can’t work), I burn about 1,500 a day and my ideal weight is 8st 8 to 10 10 I think ge said. We are upping calories to reach a goal quicker of 9st or 9 abd a half.
I just ate two eggs in a ham ommelette abd feel fat knowing there’s 50% fat in that!! Already half the GDA!! I want another one so I’ll just use egg whites. Wonder how many to use to make same size ommelette? Egg whites are ok to eat few times daily? Sorry for the ling post. I got no choice but to listen to the dietician and I hope to god he’s right about the fats etc. I know my body needs em but I said so I can go three or four times over the daily limit a day then every day and not get flabby or fat and not pile it on? He said that’s right. Not that I would of course.

By: Ally

Ally — Sun, 28 Nov 2010 14:24:09 +0000

a guy- good for you,go for it, and stay positive.